angry, diet, gym

pity party officially OVER!

The pity party is officially over. Yeah- I gained weight. Yeah – it sucks! But I’m not gonna stay down about it. Gonna get mad as hell at it, lose what I gained and a couple more pounds. I don’t like whiney me! Sassy me is so much better! Off to find my sexiest boots and kick ass!



Have you seen this woman?

Have you seen this woman?WOW. What a difference five years makes...

She looks like me.  A little lighter version of the present me.  I was modeling my new Glycerin running shoes for my husband- that he purchased for me since my old Brooks were dead.  I’d worn the tread clean off ’em! Thanks to the hubs for spending what I thought was a small fortune for my shoes.  I have a hard time spending money on myself.  I didn’t have to- he did it for me!

This was last May, so not that long ago! I mentioned before that May was the beginning of my momentary lapse of sanity. You can read all about that here… I was about 10 pounds from my goal.  Um.  Now I am about 25 pounds from my goal.  WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

I’ve been really very down about this gain.  But apparently not down enough to do something to help myself get back at it.  I am kickboxing again, but not as often as I had been…I am using the AMT more, but again, not with the perseverance in months prior to May…I am walking, but not with the emphasis I had before.  What’s really bad is that I own 3 pair of jeans that I could wear at the beginning of summer that I can’t/shouldn’t wear now.  Hello…fall is coming and what will I wear?

Things I’ve determined: I can’t do the low carb thing like I’d planned to do.  I swear it is harder than you think!

I am tired of counting calories.  I’ve done that for 2 years now.  Maybe that’s why I got to be such a slacker?! I got tired of doing it.

I’ve slowed down a bit on alcohol intake- hoping that will help the gaining situation!

I think I’d like to try Weight Watchers again since I know that program works.  It’s a slow going process, but it works, and is what I used to start on this journey November 1 2011. I could do it again.  It’s a bit pricey- and again, it’s COUNTING.

For those reading, when you get in a slump, what do you do to find your mojo again?

The gain has consumed every portion of my brain activity.  I think about it when I wake up.  And then all day long.  Sometimes I walk in the mornings before I have to go to work.  Now that Stinkerbell is back in school and goes to school at 7-ish, that is difficult, so I go to the gym in the evenings.  Not every evening like before, though.  I need to find the bad ass boxing girl I was.  Instead, I am sad and depressed.  And I am not digging depressed me.  She’s not cute and she’s really a bitch to live with!

I’ve been following the posts  on Brooke’s blog: and wanting to participate. She’s totally motivating:)

I need to quit being a whiner and get my ass moving! Can’t let myself stay down about this.  I didn’t work hard to lose 80 pounds only to gain.  I just need a little push, I think !  What keeps you motivated?  You would think the fact that the cutest clothes I’ve owned since I was a teenager not fitting would be motivation enough, right?  NOT!

Looking forward to hearing what helps you find your groove.